my shattered life

I sit here in your hoodie and my favorite pajamas
wondering what went wrong, how'd it end so fast
where'd all the late nights and the laughter go
why am i sitting here on this cold september night all alone
and the more i think about it the more i want to cry
because somehow I wasn't ready to say goodbye
so i'm holding tightly to the pieces of my shattered life
wishing the pieces would fit back together, but they don't
and wondering if someday they will, but they won't
If I could take back anything, if i could fix my biggest regret
I'd fix this mess, I'd rebuild these broken friendships
I'd give anything to laugh, anything to smile like that again
because when i needed to run away that's where i went
and the more i think about it the more i want to cry
because somehow i wasn't ready to say goodbye
so i'm holding tightly to the pieces of my shattered life
wishing the pieces would fit back together, but they don't
and wondering if someday they will, but they won't
they don't know those nights saved me
they don't know they kept me from crashing
because they never knew i was running
and they didn't know what i was running from
and the more i think about it the more i want to cry
because somehow i wasn't ready to say goodbye
so i'm holding tightly to the pieces of my shattered life
wishing the pieces would fit back together, but they don't
and wondering if someday they will, but they won't
because i'm not done running, I haven't gotten away yet
what's haunting me now is the same as what haunted me then
and I need to run but no matter how much i try I can't seem to move
because If I run too fast i'm afraid that i'll go too far and forget you
and the more i think about it the more i want to cry
because somehow i wasn't ready to say goodbye