smogfry2005

There's so much screaming in my dreams It's so loud that I can't sleep my thoughts keep spinning they're so fast, they're making me dizzy I just want it to slow down before I crash and burn out from all of these hallucinations that in the day are haunting me and there's a shadow always by my side that keeps screaming in my ear constantly tell me secrets that no one else can hear I just want the shadows silenced I'd do anything for some peace and quiet but the shadows won't go away and things never seem to slow down no matter how firmly I stand with my feet planted on the ground.

Why can't you just leave me alone accept that I'm happy without you putting me down, putting him down none of that is going to bring me back because I'm not ever coming back there's nothing you can say and there's nothing you can do I'm not changing my mind so just accept that we're through get over it all and leave I can't stand all your negativity I don't need that in my life I don't need you in my life you're nothing but a virus that keeps trying to infect me but I've built up antibodies I'm immune to your disease I won't play your games I see right through your lies so move on and get out of my life

There's a girl in every picture but no one knows her name how can we see someone everyday and still not recognize their face it's amazing how time passes the people around us change some of them we never forget but others quickly fade away and in the end there's a picture always of a forgotten face a picture of a mysterious girl and no one remembers her name

I had an argument with myself today looking in the mirror I told myself everything Everyone else has been too afraid to say and underneath it all I found my biggest mistakes I've learned that the moments I regret the most are the one in which I ignored my heart and played it safe I feel happy, I feel more alive when I take risks so I'll take a chance on you, I'll take a chance on this I'll put my heart into it, I'll give it all I've got then even if it fails at least I'll know I gave it a shot

I'm scared to admit what I've been thinking because I've been thinking about myself a lot tearing myself down with inner soul reflection realizing I'm more complex than originally thought all this time I've done the things I've done never knowing why I do the things I do I always thought I knew who I was but I've never even scratched the surface so inside my head I'm digging deeper I'm digging down until I reach my core so I can quit repeatedly making the same mistakes and finally understand why I am the way I am.

He wasn't just a boy in tin foil what you had was the real deal you had a knight in a world full of cowards but you messed up, you threw it all away because you refused to grow up you just had to play your childish games and she, she wasn't just another girl she was a princess in disguise the last one left of her kind but you pushed her away you couldn't let go of your jealousy you just had to play your childish games and now she's gone, now he's gone he stayed put, she ran away but it all worked out, they fell into place and I don't know how your story ends but in this story the knight gets the princess.

All this time I thought chivalry was dead until you came along and behaved like a gentleman now I'm thinking about selling you my soul because all you have to do is touch me and I tremble you kiss me and my heart literally skips a beat it terrifies me, it's never been this way before but I'm not running away, because nervousness is half the fun I'm sticking around, my souls yours from this point on.

I stand here on the edge of this cliff looking back at the life I've lived was it a life lived to the fullest? Did I ever really live at all? somedays I feel like I've wasted it like I've spent it standing still too afraid to take that next step forward terrified I'd end up getting hurt Have I just been a ship in the harbor wanting to live but too afraid to start? always so afraid of losing myself that I have yet to discover who I am all I've done is barely even existed I've coasted along, if I've ever moved at all I've lived a life with no purpose, No meaning I've never left a mark on anyone or anything I often thought I was

It's crazy laying here knowing I still love you I wake up in the middle of the night and reach over just to find empty space on what was once your side I miss the warmth of your arms I miss how safe I felt inside of them I always felt safe when I was with you atleast until one of us spoke then I didn't feel safe, I felt trapped but I still miss the relationship we could have had we could have been perfect for each other if you would have realized I'm not my past and I'm not your past either.

i stare at the moon hidden behind the fog I thought my life would be in order atleast by twenty-five but I'm still indecisive I'm still lost in the fog and I'm still alone I thought I'd have it figured out but I don't I'm clueless I thought I'd be all grown up but I'm still just a kid there's a lot I don't know alot I've never done I'm not who I thought I'd be instead I'm wandering aimlessly no idea where I'm going or when it's all going to end I'm just lost in the fog staring at this moon like i've always done every night before this one.